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Hidupku…

i dun know why but i keep on playing this song for one whole day today...
i'm so attracted to this particular song...
maybe because this song is so close to my love life...
Maybe...

My dark chocolate...

ich verpasse meine dunkle Schokolade!

Stressing myself...

i dunno why i choose to stress myself today...

i had given the options but still willingly i choose to trouble myself to think bout something that i dun need to think, at least not now...to own something almost perfect and then losing it...i dunno how to handle this kind of situation...daring myself is something i should do now...dare to take the challenge of uncertainties...dare to dream of something i never dare to dream before...dare to explore the area that i never been before...

i dun mind to confess that i'm scare...that's why i cry...i like to cry..that's the best solution i had so far...

from now on i need to learn to be independent..to stand on my own two feet...to believe in myself that i'm possible to achieve whatever i plan to...so i give myself another three days to mourn and after that i'll move on...good luck!

Good bye...

I can see the pain living in your eyes

And I know how hard you try

You deserve to have so much more

I can feel your heart and I simpathize

And I'll never criticize

All you've ever meant to my life

I don't want to let you down

I don't want to lead you on

i don't want to hold you back

From where you might belong

You would never ask me why

My heart is so disguised

I just can't live a lie anymore

I would rather hurt myself

Than to ever make you cry

There's nothing left to say but goodbye

You deserve the chance at the kind of love

I'm not sure i'm worthy of

Losing you is painful to me

I don't want to let you down

I don't want to lead you on

i don't want to hold you back

From where you might belong

You would never ask me why

My heart is so disguised

I just can't live a lie anymore

I would rather hurt myself

Than to ever make you cry

There's nothing left to say but goodbye

You would never ask me why

My heart is so disguised

I just can't live a lie anymore

I would rather hurt myself

Than to ever make you cry

There's nothing left to try

Though it's gonna hurt us both

There's no other way than to say goodbye

~Goodbye by Air supply~

The award of the bestest boss ever goes to you, my dear boss...

Miss u I will always be...

Remember all the knowledge u taught i will always do...

Smile for all the memories u left behind i will never forget...

Cry everytime i think of u i will always try not to...

For u know where ur place in my heart will always be...

A place where no other bosses will ever can replace...

Cos i already carved ur name in my heart....

Cause you give me something...

You want to stay with me in the morning
You only hold me when I sleep,
I was meant to tread the water
Now I've gotten in too deep,
For every piece of me that wants you
Another piece backs away.
'Cause you give me something
That makes me scared, alright,
This could be nothing
But I'm willing to give it a try,
Please give me something
'Cause someday I might know my heart.
You already waited up for hours
Just to spend a little time alone with me,
And I can say I've never bought you flowers
I can't work out what the mean,
I never thought that I'd love someone,
That was someone else's dream.
'Cause you give me something
That makes me scared, alright,
This could be nothing
But I'm willing to give it a try,
Please give me something,
'Cause someday I might call you from my heart,
But it might me a second too late,
And the words I could never say
Gonna come out anyway.
'Cause you give me something
That makes me scared, alright,
This could be nothing
But I'm willing to give it a try,
Please give me something,
'Cause you give me something
That makes me scared, alright,
This could be nothing
But I'm willing to give it a try,
Please give me something
'Cause someday I might know my heart.
Know my heart, know my heart, know my heart

~James Morrison~

Just nice...

i like my black coffee with two spoons of sugar...

it taste just nice for me...

i like my hair to be not too short but also not too long...

the length is just nice for me...

i like my proton wira cos it not too small but also not too big...

the size is just nice for me...

i like my new apartment cos it not too cramp but also not too spacious...

the space is just nice for me...

i like my parent cos they are not control my life wholly but still have their eyes on me...

the "control freedom" is just nice for me...

i love my life cos...

i'm not rich but not poor either...

i'm lonely sometimes but occupied some other time...

i'm sad occasionally but happy every now and then...

and it all just nice for me...

Just nice :)

Love stone...

Rose quartz is pink quartz that is often called the "Love Stone." It is a stone of unconditional love that opens the heart chakra to all forms of love: self-love, family love, platonic love, and romantic love. The high energy of quartz gives rose quartz the property of enhancing love in virtually any situation. In turn, this lowers stress. All in all it is a very soothing and happy stone.

Emotionally rose quartz brings gentleness, forgiveness, compassion, kindness and tolerance. It raises one's self-esteem and sense of self-worth. It helps balance emotions and heal emotional wounds and traumas, even grief, bringing peace and calm. Rose quartz removes fears, resentments and anger. It can also heal and release childhood traumas, neglect, and lack of love, in part by enhancing inner awareness. It can help with reconciliation with family and others. Overwhelming or unreasonable guilt is eased by rose quartz.

In the psychic and spiritual realms, rose quartz is often used to attract love, and for love spells. It is also used to ease the process of transition in dying. Rose quartz can be helpful for dream recall and dream work.

The universal meaning of rose quartz is as a stone of love. This meaning of rose quartz includes love of the self (and self-forgiveness) as well as love of others. People have used rose quartz to bring forgiveness to a relationship and to replace love that might be lost in life.Rose quartz symbolizes the ability to open one's heart to love, the gentle aspect of love as opposed to the passionate.Another meaning of rose quartz is to promote healing to the wearer. It provides gentle energy for mental and emotional balance.

And i'm wearing it now! he..he..he...