have u ever ask urself....

If you were going to die soon and had only one phone call you could make, who would you call and what would you say? And why are you waiting?

I am sorry...

There's one sad truth in life I've found...

While journeying east and west...

The only folks we really wound...

Are those we love the best...

We flatter those we scarcely know,

We please the fleeting guest,

And deal full many a thoughtless blow...

to those who love us best...

~Ella Wheeler Wilcox~

waiting...

i am waiting for something very important to happen...
something that can change my life forever...
as i am eagerly want my life to change...
cos my life story keep on repeating the same script...
maybe with this minor change will redirect my path to something meaningful...
maybe it will lead me to something i really need...
maybe i need to leave something behind...
to be able to gain something more important...
it is not that i dont appreciate what i have now...
just i dont think it enuf..i want more..more of everything...

Love...

Love is not blind but people who fall in love are...
Some say that all fair in love and war but...
Is it still fair when your heart broke?
Is it still fair when your dream collapsed?
Is it still fair when you were left alone?

...

Sometimes it's better to not know than to know about something that can directly hurts ur feeling....
Sometimes something is better left unsolved and unknown...
Sometimes it's better to not to think about something...
Sometimes to always be together doesn't mean u happy...
Cos sometimes it doesn't mean u hungry when u eat; and u stop eating definitely doesn't mean u full...

Pretender..am I good at it?

To pretend that I am okay when you are on the phone with others is so hard for me to do...

To pretend that I didn't notice when you replying others smses is so hard for me to do...

To have a bubbly talk with you after doing something that's so hard for me to do is even harder...

To try giving you the sweetest smile while doing something harder is the hardest thing i ever done...

But...I did promise you...

So...Now I am doing the hard, harder and hardest things ...

(Please pray for me...)

over and over again...

Have you ever been hurt and the place tries to heal a bit, and you just pull the scar off of it over and over again.

~Rosa Parks

That's so me! Me myself always asking the same question; why i keep on falling for someone that obviously i can't have? isn't it because i'm so adventureous and always looking for something that so challenging? Or isn't it because I'm kinda person who is so tempting with something that hard to get and couldn't care less for something that i can have easily? Should i analyze myself more deeply to find where is the source of the problem? Hmmm....but, can't I just leave this matter alone and don't really bother about it cos I don' t really care....

needed vs cherished...

Men felt loved when they feel that they are needed.

Women felt loved when they feel that they are being cherished.

(MEN ARE FROM MARS, WOMEN ARE FROM VENUS)

to have or not to have...

I've been thinking hard lately about something...
and been wondering also which one is a better choice...
to be the true love of someone life but...
he is someone else belonging or...
to have someone u love as urs but...
his heart belong to someone else..

for me both are still so painful to live ur life with...
but if i had to choose i rather choose emotionally belonging than physical...
when u know someone u love, love u back..
it's so heavenly tasty feeling u felt inside u...
but to live ur life with someone who rather love someone else besides u..
it's so torturing and meaningless...

but now sometimes i felt i am neither that nor that....
what i meant is sometimes i felt i am not with someone who wants someone else/belong to someone else..
confused? me also...
(other meaning~I am trying to be with someone who is belong to someone else who i don't think really in love or want to be with me. it's so hard and very painful. very demanding n torturing)

but i hope i will end up living my happy life with someone who adore me more than i love him ;)
who is rather to live his life alone than without me...
who love only me, myself n I...
who is never had any doubt about my love to him...
who is perfectly understand my swing and unpredictable mood...
but still i wonder...
where n how exactly i'm gonna find him?
in my dream maybe......

i wonder...

have u ever wonder who will be mending ur broken heart?
have u ever wonder who will be lending his shoulder for u to cry on?
have u ever wonder who will be patiently listen to ur never ending office gossip?
have u ever wonder who will be waiting for u at the airport parking at 2am in the morning?
have u ever wonder who will be willing to share his life with u without any doubt or regret?
have u ever wonder with whom u will be spending ur old time with?
have u ever wonder?