Wednesday, July 30, 2008

Copycat!

I hate copycat! think of ur own ideas and style please... please let others like or love you the way u are not the way u try to imitate other... even if they like u pun, it's not u but the person u try to be...sooner or later, u'll be tired of pretending... do be original...be urself...

Am I?

How great will it be if I can not to think and analyze about everything!

I hate to admit it but I am starting to regret about something I did in the past that maybe had affect my current life… Looking back, will my path of life now change if I make different decisions before? Since I am not a kind of person who likes to live in the past, so why am I in this flashback mode?

Recently, a lot of things have been going on in my life… Some are good things, some not too good…some also a mixture of both…some even make me confused and keep on changing my opinion everyday whether it’s a good thing or not really…

As a green person in personality, I am a thinker and will always analyzing everything I do, will do and did…. Though the events has passed still I will analyze whether the outcome will be better if I make a different choice…I am so conscious about what others think about me and I do have my own opinion about everything and nothing!

And as a cancer by zodiac, I had been label as changeable, moody, over-emotional, touchy, clinging, unable to "let go," and a tendency to wallow in self-pity. Also I’d been advice to learn to get things into a proper perspective and take a realistic view of life. I maybe agree with this as sometimes when I’m too deep into my analyzing mode I do make an unrealistic hypothesis about something so simple and plain…

After writing this, do I feel relieve? A little bit maybe…. Regret it? Not sure yet, still thinking and analyzing it after I reread it a few times …will I delete this entry in future? Depends on the consequence after I publish it…hope not…

But not matter how much I regret about my past decisions still I had to face and patiently go through with my life now… What left for me to do is make a good thing out of it and don’t forget to enjoy the journey!

Monday, July 28, 2008

Dear Mama....


As the only girl in the family, I'm so super close with my mama... to call & update her my everyday life is a must....
I am so used to her nag when I ain't listen to her advise...
so used to her laugh when i tell her funny stories...
I am so used to her motivated words when I am down...
so used to her tears when she's hurt...

to gossip with her about almost everything around her & me...
to share with her my trouble and hers...
to cry on her shoulder while she comforting me with her smile...
but now...
since more than a month now...
I miss her nagging me...
I miss her comforting words...
I miss her... I miss everything that she used to be to me....
though I still have her as she is now...

I really hope that she will get well soon...
cos i cant take it any longer...
the burden inside that i've been ignoring...
with the thought that once she's ok..I'll tell her about my sorrow...
about all the trouble... about all the sadness and worry....
since she's the only one i trust with my life....

Mama...
I love you...
no matter what happen to you...
my love for you will always stay the same...
as I told you before...
I'll take care of you...
till my last breath...

Monday, July 21, 2008

Promises...


Promises are like babies: easy to make, hard to deliver.

Promises are like crying babies in a theater, they should be carried out at once.

A promise made is a debt unpaid...

Promises are like the full moon, if they are not kept at once they diminish day by day.

Unless commitment is made, there are only promises and hopes; but no plans.

Thursday, July 17, 2008

Again...it's Mysha time!

Her sweet smile...like her 'mummy'...
Soundly asleep..so peaceful....
crying at her ummi asking for her bottle....
her big round eyes...itu yang mengundang rindu :)

Sempurna...

Wednesday, July 16, 2008

currently....

when u had love then u lost it then after awhile u found love back...
definitely u hope that u'll hold it till the end...

I had love....long time ago...real love...love that i tot my soulmate...
then i lost it...so deeply hurt...til i tot it will never can be heal...
but now i found love...new love...
love that i hope will stay for good in my heart and my life...

its seem that everybody around me also sense the existance of love inside me...
as this smile always shine on me face...
as the words that came out from me mouth are as sweet as lolipop...

so hard i pray to always have u in my life....
so please dear...do stay....