Monday, September 24, 2007

my sweet memory


my sweet memory...
as i left you behind...
i thought that i can easily forget you...
just like how the wind blow away dried leaves...
i thought that i will feel nothing...feel nothing at all...
just like how i feel when i drink a glass of plain water...
and i also thought that i will not be missing u...not even a little bit...
BUT...
i'm so 180 degree wrong...
as forget you is hard for me to do...
and i feel like slamming my stubborn head on the wall
till all the pictures of your smile i captured escape from my mind...
and i feel so deeply unhappy...
just like a little girl would feel when her big brother steal her lolipop from her pinky mouth...
and i miss you so much...
and i feel like crying 247 non stop...
til my room fill with my precious tears and i will be drown in it...
~sarra,23:11-sunday~

these & this...

these eyes are just to capture your smiling face...
these ears are just to listen to your enchanting voice...
these lips smile just for you...
this nose smells just for your sweet odour...
these hands are just for you to hold...
these feet are just to follow wherever you go...
there is only you in this dream...
as there is only you in this life...
if only i can tell you this...
~sarra,18:28-sunday~

Wednesday, September 19, 2007

A Vacation...







A vacation is what you take when you can no longer take what you've been taking.
~Earl Wilson
A vacation is like love - anticipated with pleasure, experienced with discomfort, and remembered with nostalgia.
~Author Unknown
A vacation is having nothing to do and all day to do it in.
~Robert Orben
A good vacation is over when you begin to yearn for your work.
~Morris Fishbein
I travel not to go anywhere, but to go. I travel for travel's sake. The great affair is to move.
~Robert Louis Stevenson
Travel and change of place impart new vigor to the mind.
~Seneca
To get away from one's working environment is, in a sense, to get away from one's self; and this is often the chief advantage of travel and change.
~Charles Horton Cooley


Tuesday, September 18, 2007

I am a Cancer...


Cancer, the fourth sign of the zodiac, is a water sign, which signifies your highly emotional nature. Being under the sway of the element of water also makes you highly caring, generous and intuitive. You are highly evolved, even spiritual — the water signs are karmically developed and refined in spirit.

Water is malleable and adaptable. You are very much like that. You adapt when you have to, but you much prefer to make changes on your own terms.Like water, you are soothing and nourishing too. Life-supporting energies are at the heart of your character. You will act as a support for many people — in your own family and beyond.

You are for the most part a person of feeling and sensation. Often you will ignore your own judgment and rationality, and someone’s else’s reasonable advice, in favour of how you feel. You don’t care if you’re wrong, either! If your intuition tells you to do something, like reaching out to give someone a helping hand, you’ll just do it.


Others turn to you when they need a shoulder to cry on — you’ll do well in any of the caring professions. This approach is highlighted by your key life phrase, ‘I nurture’. You find it difficult to turn away anyone in need. Anyone who knows you will agree that you are one of the best people to connect with if they need advice. Friends will turn to you if they are in trouble, knowing that your sensitive and compassionate touch will lighten their load.


You are extremely receptive to your environment and the people around you, and will often ‘pick up’ people’s energies, moods and thoughts. This ability serves you well; your intuition about people is quite often correct. Your knack of knowing people’s issues before they even open their mouths attracts them to you. The difficulty with this, though, is that you can tend to absorb their emotions — negative as well as positive.
You reflect the qualities of the changing Moon. This means that at times your emotions get the better of you, and you swing from high to low. Family and friends will be well aware of this, but they will not doubt your loyalty and supportiveness.


Another aspect of the Moon that sometimes doesn’t work well for you is its maternal nature. You sometimes veer too close to the mothering/smothering lane, which can put people off.


Back on the plus side, you love to mix with all sorts of people. Social activities are an essential ingredient in your development. You are a great success socially, because you can convey your wisdom to others so well — Cancerians have very expressive faces.


Creative enterprises are a great way to make the most of your moods and your imagination. Music and writing are perfect vehicles for you. You can express the inner part of your being as entertaining literary, art or music pieces.


Cooking is also a great outlet for you. Even if you cook as a hobby rather than as a job, you will find that it balances your state of mind over time.


Sometimes you can get locked into your own private lifestyle, and only come out at full Moon. Being a recluse is not for you, though — share your talents and love with the world. Some of this is down to your love of the night.Because the Moon’s domain is the night, many Cancerians are night owls. From twilight on, your creativity starts to flow and you feel at home — you have a strong affinity with lunar energies. This is a good time to get into writing, meditating, or just walking in the moonlight. All these will energise you. You love the stillness and mystery of the night.


You are a consummate homemaker. Even men born under this sign express the ‘feminine’ aspect of their character in their love of the kitchen, and activities that make them feel secure in their domestic space.


You love to collect or keep mementos — such as scrapbooks and other bits and pieces — that bring back memories of good times and people you care about. You have a great memory, not just for facts, but also any good turn or kindness you’ve received.


You can always talk about any subject with anyone. That retentive memory is a help here, as is your impartial, even-handed approach to people generally. Dealing with people comes naturally to you: add this to your shrewdness and intuition, and you are likely to be a good businessperson. You can also use these skills in managing your day-to-day life.


Were you born between 4th and 13th July? Well, Cancer, I see you have a very deep and penetrating mind and can sometimes be overly intense in relationships. Your loyalty is unconditional and you make the staunchest of friends.

Thursday, September 13, 2007

Missing my Family....

i'm kinda sad sikit today cos it's the first day of ramadhan & i cant "berbuka" wif my family..it's been 4 years already for me to experience my first day of ramadhan di perantauan, away from my family...sedihnyer. B'cos i dun wanna berbuka alone, so today i'll drive back to my aunt's house in Sg Long...dun care bout the distance, i just dun wanna berbuka alone...tomorrow i'll fly back to my hometown & definitely will berbuka wif my parent...sangat suka...

Wednesday, September 12, 2007

Please lah....


Why sometimes people tend to portray the worst bout their life then actual/reality? i hate it d most when someone telling me that he/she had financial problem but stil he/she can bought expensive things..huh? or when someone try to get my sympathy by telling me their sad love story but still i heard she/he asking others for date..double huh?or when someone telling me that he/she has nothing to do for the weekend but actually his/her plan alredi full! ooo...please lah....

for these kinda people, sorry no place for u in my precious life...i dun really like pretender...sorry yea..i rather have a few friends but with good quality than a lot of friends with no quality...My mama once said, be really carefully when u choose ur friends cos people always judge u thru which circle of friends u r coming from...

I never dreamed of being Shakespeare or Goethe, and I never expected to hold the great mirror of truth up before the world; I dreamed only of being a little pocket mirror, the sort that a woman can carry in her purse; one that reflects small blemishes, and some great beauties, when held close enough to the heart. ~Peter Altenberg

i'm so glad to have friends like mine who never pretend to be someone their not, who always say their mind out (thou they might regret it later), who cry when they sad n laugh n smile when they happy...glad to have u all in my life babes *especially u, gediks n angel+kak Z & my lil sis*( triple muahhss to u all)..i'll always value our friendship...Do knock me on my head if i ever try to be someone i'm not, boleh?




Tuesday, September 11, 2007

Chance or choice?


When we meet the right person to love when we're at the right place at the right time, That's chance.When you meet someone you're attracted to, that's not a choice. That's chance.

Being caught up in a moment (and there's a lot of couples who get together because of this) is not a choice. That's also a chance. The difference is what happens afterwards. When will you take that infatuation, that crush, that mind-blowing attraction to the next level?

That's when all sanity goes back, you sit down and contemplate whether you want to make this into a concrete relationship or just a fling.If you decide to love a person, even with his faults, that's not a chance. That's choice.When you choose to be with a person, no matter what, that's choice.

Even if you know there are many people out there who are more attractive, smarter, and richer than your mate, and yet, you decide to love and stay loyal to your mate just the same, that's choice. Infatuation, crushes, attraction comes to us by chance.

But true love that lasts is truly a choice.A choice that we make. Regarding soul mates, there's a beautiful movie quote that I believe is so true about this: "Fate brings you together, but it's still up to you to make it happen."

I do believe that soul mates do exist. That there is truly someone made for you. But it's still up to you to make the choice if you're going to do something about it or not.

To make the relationship work even when things seem stale, and when temptations abound, that's a choice you have to make.

We may meet our soul mates by chance, but loving and staying with our soul mates is still a choice we have to make.

We came to the world not by finding someone perfect to love...BUT to learn how to love an imperfect person perfectly
...

someone send me this long time ago...I agree wif every words he/she wrote...it's by chance that our paths cross but it's my choice or urs whether we want to stay together or be apart...whether we want to name this relationship as friend or more than just friend...whether we would expect something from this relationship or nothing at all...whether i still want to give a try or just give up...

Monday, September 10, 2007

kekasih gelapku


Ku mencintaimu lebih dari apapun
Meskipun tiada satu orangpun yang tahu
Ku mencintaimu sedalam dalam hatiku
Meskipun engkau hanya kekasih gelapku
Yakinlah bahwa engkau adalah cintaku
Yang kucari selama ini dalam hidupku
Dan hanya padamu kuberikan sisa cintaku
Yang panjang dalam hidupku
Hidupku…


i dun know why but i keep on playing this song for one whole day today...
i'm so attracted to this particular song...
maybe because this song is so close to my love life...
Maybe...

Friday, September 7, 2007

Thursday, September 6, 2007

Stressing myself...


i dunno why i choose to stress myself today...

i had given the options but still willingly i choose to trouble myself to think bout something that i dun need to think, at least not now...to own something almost perfect and then losing it...i dunno how to handle this kind of situation...daring myself is something i should do now...dare to take the challenge of uncertainties...dare to dream of something i never dare to dream before...dare to explore the area that i never been before...

i dun mind to confess that i'm scare...that's why i cry...i like to cry..that's the best solution i had so far...
from now on i need to learn to be independent..to stand on my own two feet...to believe in myself that i'm possible to achieve whatever i plan to...so i give myself another three days to mourn and after that i'll move on...good luck!

Wednesday, September 5, 2007

Good bye...

I can see the pain living in your eyes
And I know how hard you try
You deserve to have so much more
I can feel your heart and I simpathize
And I'll never criticize
All you've ever meant to my life
I don't want to let you down
I don't want to lead you on
i don't want to hold you back
From where you might belong
You would never ask me why
My heart is so disguised
I just can't live a lie anymore
I would rather hurt myself
Than to ever make you cry
There's nothing left to say but goodbye
You deserve the chance at the kind of love
I'm not sure i'm worthy of
Losing you is painful to me
I don't want to let you down
I don't want to lead you on
i don't want to hold you back
From where you might belong
You would never ask me why
My heart is so disguised
I just can't live a lie anymore
I would rather hurt myself
Than to ever make you cry
There's nothing left to say but goodbye
You would never ask me why
My heart is so disguised
I just can't live a lie anymore
I would rather hurt myself
Than to ever make you cry
There's nothing left to try
Though it's gonna hurt us both
There's no other way than to say goodbye

~Goodbye by Air supply~
The award of the bestest boss ever goes to you, my dear boss...
Miss u I will always be...
Remember all the knowledge u taught i will always do...
Smile for all the memories u left behind i will never forget...
Cry everytime i think of u i will always try not to...
For u know where ur place in my heart will always be...
A place where no other bosses will ever can replace...
Cos i already carved ur name in my heart....

Tuesday, September 4, 2007

Cause you give me something...


You want to stay with me in the morning
You only hold me when I sleep,
I was meant to tread the water
Now I've gotten in too deep,
For every piece of me that wants you
Another piece backs away.
'Cause you give me something
That makes me scared, alright,
This could be nothing
But I'm willing to give it a try,
Please give me something
'Cause someday I might know my heart.
You already waited up for hours
Just to spend a little time alone with me,
And I can say I've never bought you flowers
I can't work out what the mean,
I never thought that I'd love someone,
That was someone else's dream.
'Cause you give me something
That makes me scared, alright,
This could be nothing
But I'm willing to give it a try,
Please give me something,
'Cause someday I might call you from my heart,
But it might me a second too late,
And the words I could never say
Gonna come out anyway.
'Cause you give me something
That makes me scared, alright,
This could be nothing
But I'm willing to give it a try,
Please give me something,
'Cause you give me something
That makes me scared, alright,
This could be nothing
But I'm willing to give it a try,
Please give me something
'Cause someday I might know my heart.
Know my heart, know my heart, know my heart

~James Morrison~

Just nice...


i like my black coffee with two spoons of sugar...
it taste just nice for me...
i like my hair to be not too short but also not too long...
the length is just nice for me...
i like my proton wira cos it not too small but also not too big...
the size is just nice for me...
i like my new apartment cos it not too cramp but also not too spacious...
the space is just nice for me...
i like my parent cos they are not control my life wholly but still have their eyes on me...
the "control freedom" is just nice for me...
i love my life cos...
i'm not rich but not poor either...
i'm lonely sometimes but occupied some other time...
i'm sad occasionally but happy every now and then...
and it all just nice for me...
Just nice :)

Monday, September 3, 2007

Love stone...

Rose quartz is pink quartz that is often called the "Love Stone." It is a stone of unconditional love that opens the heart chakra to all forms of love: self-love, family love, platonic love, and romantic love. The high energy of quartz gives rose quartz the property of enhancing love in virtually any situation. In turn, this lowers stress. All in all it is a very soothing and happy stone.

Emotionally rose quartz brings gentleness, forgiveness, compassion, kindness and tolerance. It raises one's self-esteem and sense of self-worth. It helps balance emotions and heal emotional wounds and traumas, even grief, bringing peace and calm. Rose quartz removes fears, resentments and anger. It can also heal and release childhood traumas, neglect, and lack of love, in part by enhancing inner awareness. It can help with reconciliation with family and others. Overwhelming or unreasonable guilt is eased by rose quartz.

In the psychic and spiritual realms, rose quartz is often used to attract love, and for love spells. It is also used to ease the process of transition in dying. Rose quartz can be helpful for dream recall and dream work.
The universal meaning of rose quartz is as a stone of love. This meaning of rose quartz includes love of the self (and self-forgiveness) as well as love of others. People have used rose quartz to bring forgiveness to a relationship and to replace love that might be lost in life.Rose quartz symbolizes the ability to open one's heart to love, the gentle aspect of love as opposed to the passionate.Another meaning of rose quartz is to promote healing to the wearer. It provides gentle energy for mental and emotional balance.
And i'm wearing it now! he..he..he...